Last week, my husband and I went to Disneyland - we decided to leave our worries behind us and had a wonderful time there just being kids again. However, now that we’re back, I feel like I’ve taken on a huge load again.
Milt (my father-in-law) is having hip replacement surgery next week on Tuesday, and I’ve been his chauffeur for the last month or so, since he can’t drive (percocet makes things a little loopy - don’t you know). So I’ve been driving him and Shirley (my mom-in-law) to all the appointments, hospital meetings, etc. So I really haven’t had anytime to myself lately. And to add to all that, Shirley is suffering from a pretty deep depression and she refuses to do anything about it - it’s situational - it started when Milt was diagnosed with arteritis (an auto-immune disease) and it’s just gotten worse over the last two years. I’m one of the few people that she can open up to and she’s been doing that a lot more lately - so I want to be there for her to help her.
So that’s two people who I’m carrying a burden for, and last night, my husband Steve had a horrible pain in his back - it turns out he pulled a bunch of muscles (unfortunately wrestling with me) and he’s not allowed to do anything right now - including go into the office. And I had to drive him to the chiropractor this morning for an adjustment. So that’s burden number three.
Another thing that I’ve been doing for about a year now is helping a friend of mine who teaches 2nd grade. I go into her room and help her with reading, math and language arts lessons. I love doing it, and haven’t been able to get to the school in over a week because I’ve been driving my in-laws everywhere.
I’m not complaining - I like being able to help so many people, but I have to admit - I need some time for myself. I have homework for school that I need to finish and I need to clean the house (and Steve can’t help me with that right now). With everything going on, I just feel a bit overwhelmed at times.
I think I just need some time to pray. I really just need to be with my Lord for a while and let Him take my burdens from me. So I think that’s what I’m going to do.
