I read a friend’s blog the other day and she titled it “Laundry” and then went on to describe all the things tumbling around in her head.  Well, I’m going to “borrow” her idea and do the same thing …

So here’s the laundry tumbling around in my head … I’m spending a lot of time with my in-laws - my f-i-l is having hip replacement surgery in about 1-1/2 weeks and my car is the only one he can get in and out of easily and with little pain - so I’ve become the chauffeur - I don’t mind actually - cuz I do love my in-laws, but it’s interesting to me that Steve and my in-laws insist on continuing to thank me for doing it.  I don’t see it as an obligation, but rather something I want to do to give back to these wonderful people who have taught me so much about unconditional love.  I actually get a bit uncomfortable about the thanks - and I’m not totally sure why - but one of the things I do know is that you are there for family no matter what.

Laundry item #2 - I didn’t sleep well last night - and after trying to figure out why - I think I’ve narrowed it down to 2 things - one - I’m excited because Steve and I are going to Disneyland this afternoon (as I live in Phoenix - it’s a 6 hour drive) we’ll be staying in California til Sunday and driving back then.  However, there are a ton of things that I need get done before we leave - and I’m trying to figure out how I’m going to get them all done before 2 pm today.  We’re boarding our birds and dog in two different places, I have a training session at the gym this morning - I also have to pick up my orthotics (I was just diagnosed with plantar fasciitis - NOT FUN!!!) and I still have to clean the house and pack for the trip. So with all those things bouncing around in my head I didn’t sleep very well.

Next piece of laundry - it kind of ties in with the last one - I’m doing a fast from all sweets for 40 days and going to Disneyland today - talk about your temptations - I’m going to try to stick to the fast and remember to focus on God rather than the sweets while I’m there.

Another piece of laundry - I’m trying to get pregnant now and at the same time also starting to work out again … I’m trying to figure out how I can get healthy and stay that way when I get pregnant.  At 40 I have to work a bit harder to lose weight and to get back into shape - but I know I’m committed to do this - cuz I want to be healthy for my future kids.

Final piece of laundry - I’m still struggling with feeling inadequate and having to always strive to be better than everyone else - I know this is part of my co-dependency and I wonder if I will ever get over that feeling.  I’m praying about it a lot and giving my co-dependency to God (He can shoulder the burden so much better than I can) but for some weird reason - I keep taking the burden back - I just want to give it to Him once and for all and never have to deal with it again …

Anyway - that’s what’s going on in my head these days …

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